It’s another nice day outside. The sun is shining and the temperature is nice. It is supposed to get a little warmer this afternoon. There is no wind today. There is supposed to be a storm coming in tomorrow or the next day which will lower the temperatures a bit. After that it seems to go on the usual early Spring thing of a rollercoaster. Up and then down a bit then up again.
I had a difficult sleep last night. I don’t know if it was something I ate or drank yesterday but it made for a tense night of sleep. I woke to my mind running and even trying to take over with it’s worry. I just endured it as it didn’t want to stop. Felt the rollercoaster within me.
I’m beginning to see an even deeper meaning to what my heart had taught me, to allow myself to feel the feeling but don’t fight against them or try to change them. Really this means to just stay in the present as I experience them from moment to moment.
I have a bit of tightness in my shoulder that flares up when I turn my head in that direction.
What was interesting was that once I got up and I looked at YouTube, the very first video on my home page was about this very thing. The challenges that come up while living in the present.
He stated that challenges are beneficial to awareness. Depending on how we react or respond to the challenges, they can either deepen awareness or they can lead us back into unconsciousness.
I have to say that I don’t call this man a teacher, as my heart has already taught me everything that he talks about. I see him as more a guide. It is so interesting to hear him speak the exact same things that my heart had taught me over the past two years.
Such as how, living in the present, does protect us in a sense. But not in all things because the body really doesn’t matter. It will die. I loved hearing this come from him. It is exactly what my heart had said many times, that the focus of the heart is the expansion of the heart and not the survival of the body.
I also considered the fact that I might have over stimulated myself yesterday, as all of this was so new to me and I wanted to explore so many things. In a sense, I don’t want to view living in the present as being an escape from reality, so I do keep up on current events.
Well, today I’m focusing more on simpler things. I found the Tennis Channel on my Roku so now I can watch matches there. Tennis is a good presence sport as I can simply watch the ball go back and forth and I really don’t care who wins or loses. It’s just movement to sort of meditate within. It keeps my eyes occupied while my mind is somewhat empty of thought.
Over the past few days I’ve had some things in my mind that seem like some sort of inspiration. First, I can see a one bedroom apartment. I don’t know why. It’s just there somewhere in my life to come.
I am also sort of obsessed with electric bikes. They are now not as expensive and the technology is more sound that before. I spend time looking at them and watching videos on YouTube that examine many of them.
All I know is that they would expand my range on a bike. The one I’m looking at has a supposed range of about 50 miles per charge in hybrid mode. It even has full electric mode where I wouldn’t have to pedal at all, which is said to be about 20 miles per charge.
I don’t mind pedaling and the assistance from it would greatly increase the range I could go without getting tired. Assistance up the gradual hills that sometimes wear me out when I’m just pedaling. I can also turn it off and just pedal in flat areas, which would give me more range.
It’s only a 7 speed, which might be good for what I want to use it for. It would mean less moving parts. Still, the cost is not as high as some high end bikes but still it’s pretty steep for where I’m at right now.
This is the other interesting thing. Even though my hours haven’t increased at work, I am seeing more money coming in. I even come across savings where I don’t necessarily expect it. Like today.
I was getting ready for my formal grocery shopping trip and I decided to look for some coupons. Well, there were coupons for most everything I was going to by. In the end, the total before the coupons was $34. When all the coupons were applied it was $23.
I also no longer have any desire for the things that were once important during my previous journey. Like the sacred oil which was somewhat expensive. I will just use up what I have left and then go to a good body lotion that I like.
My credit rating is gradually getting better. All I can see is a progress that is happening that I really didn’t do anything to attain other than living in the present. This is all in the first week of doing so.
I like what my guide says on this. People ask him questions about abundance and planning for the future. He simply says that planning is good if you aren’t focused on the future. Simply plan in the present. Enjoy the planning itself.
While others will experience a more natural or organic expansion. They won’t plan or expect anything. These things will simply open up their their presence and awareness. This is more what I live.
I’m not sure if I should turn off my Internet and go fully to my cell phone. It would be much cheaper to get rid of the Internet. But right now I’m still enjoying a benefit from the Internet. Yet, with the possibility of getting an electric bike and the warmer temperatures to come, I might not find any benefit in it later. So I simply let things go for now and when the time comes, in that present moment, I will make changes accordingly.
In a sense, I have a plan but I allow the plan to form naturally or organically.
It seems I even came across a way to make a baked potato that I enjoy. It is actually very simple. I cook it in the microwave for 7 minutes, poking holes in the potato. I then take it and put it in the air fryer for 6 minutes, which crisps up the skin a bit and finishes the baking.
I then put a little margarine in along with colby jack shredded cheese with real bacon bits. I really enjoyed this potato. Maybe I can add a little sour cream next time.
I had tried so many different ways, all not satisfying. This one is completely satisfying. Maybe not overly healthy but enjoyable. I’m really not focused on diet much anymore. It’s more what I enjoy now, within a certain balance.
Well, my day started out a bit rough. In the past, it would have affected the rest of the day and even the days to come. Today it has passed and I’m back to simply living my day in the present.
It’s been only a few days, maybe approaching a week, since all of this started and it seems much has happened in this short period of time. Mostly it’s the simple peace that comes from living in the present.